I wanna say that I’m in love, but I wanna be careful saying things too quickly in case things will go wrong. I can say though, that I am falling madly. It’s slowly and controlled though to the extent falling madly for somebody can be slow and controlled. I just don’t want to get hurt again. Mr A, or A as I’ll call him from now on has everything I could dream of in a potential long term partner. He has the brains, the humour, the personality, the looks, the cooking skills, the music taste, the cock… did I just say that? Anyway, a lot that I would want as a long term partner and, I know I get carried away by saying this, but as a potential father for my future children. I love his soft skin and the way he smells. The way he talks to me when we’re making love. Sometimes with the words of a lover and sometimes the way he’d talk to a slutty bitch. He came over last night as he has done so many nights this last month. After hours of lovemaking, we finished off the Thornton’s chocolate he got me for Valentine and then, for the first time, fell asleep in each others arms. I remember thanking God for giving me this beautiful beautiful man and praying that it would be right this time before falling asleep with my head on his shoulder. I woke up before him, just listening to his quiet breathing while stroking his kinky hair. He hugged me tight and kissed me first thing when he woke up. “I’ll call you babes,” he said before disappearing quietly out the door leaving me longing for him.
Things with KS are not as bad as they could have been. KS is mad at me, but he keeps it inside and we’re at peace with each other. Hopefully we can make good friends in the future. The guy’s still young and will find someone who loves him for exactly who he is, which I do, but as a friend.
No plans for today except from filling in a couple of application forms for TV jobs and then my bible study group in the evening. Only 7 days till I go to Norway. It’s gonna be fun!
Tags: A, KS, lovemaking, Norway, relationships
